Writing For Different Age Groups with Kathryn Holmes

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Mindy: We're here with Kathryn Holmes who has a lot of experience across different areas of the publishing world including different genres, age groups, as well as co-authoring, and soloing. So Katherine is going to talk to us about all kinds of different stuff, but the first thing that I wanna jump into is talking about writing across age groups, because specifically with what you write in between - which is YA and middle grade - if you are a writer, you're aware that those differences are pretty vast, but at the same time, as a reader, it might feel more subtle. So if you could talk a little bit about the writing differences between YA, middle grade, and then, of course, chapter books.

Kathryn: I started out in YA and published two young adult novels in 2015 and 2016, and at that time, I thought I was a YA writer. And then unfortunately, I couldn't sell another YA novel - which happens to a lot of us for various reasons. And so I was kind of throwing some things at the wall trying different things. My agent encouraged me to try different things, and one of the things that she threw my way was an audition for a chapter book IP - a write for hire project. And I had never written for this age group. So chapter books are like six to nine-year-olds, first to third grade, maybe fourth grade, and I never tried it. But I didn't have anything else on my docket at the time, so I gave it a try, and I didn't get that job. But I really liked it. I really liked trying to get into the head of a first and second grade audience. So I started working on my own, and that's what eventually came out was my Class Critters series, and there's three books of those out. And they're about the second grade classroom where every kid turns into an animal for a day.

The thing that I found about writing for that age group is, obviously the language is a little less sophisticated than it is in YA, and for me, I often found that in my first drafts, I would use language that was too sophisticated. And then as I went through the editorial process, a lot of times, both myself and then my editor would be like, we can say this in a more simple, straightforward way. Let's just say it. But then also just thinking about the concerns of a second grade character, a seven-year-old, versus the concerns of a teenager. For some reason, I really didn't have a lot of trouble getting into the head of the second graders. Like, thinking about the things they are worried about... Their friend dynamics, pleasing the authority figures in their life - their teachers and their parents - wanting to succeed and wanting to fit in in their classroom, and wanting to have fun. I feel like there were two kind of changes I had to make. I had to really think about the language and the vocabulary that I was using, and then getting into their heads. Now, it helps that I have a five-year-old. So I spend a lot of time at the playground. I found myself really observing the young elementary schoolers as I was working on these and just watching them interact. What are the things that are causing conflict between them? Or what are the ways that they resolve those conflicts?

Mindy: I have never attempted to write for a younger age group. I have written YA, and that is what I am published under. I have certainly considered writing adult, and I have a few manuscripts that are just like under the bed for adult. But I have never considered going lower simply because, it's not that it doesn't interest me, but I do enjoy a little more complicated vocabulary. My humor is a little dark for one thing, but it's also very, very subtle. And I don't know if the things that I think are funny or the way that I present things would ever work in middle grade or in a chapter book. So I do know that the way to a child's heart is fart jokes. So it's like...

Kathryn: The thing about my series is that every book is told from the point of view of a different kid. It's two girls and one boy, so far, and the boy book is obviously kind of sillier and jokier. So he turns into a dog, and there is a moment where I had him figure out how he was going to pee because what would a seven-year-old boy want to do when he turns into a dog? Left his leg and pee on a bush. The two girl books are a little different. And one thing that I found though, talking about different age groups, is that the things that I'm interested in I think remain the same no matter what age I'm writing for. I'm interested in characters figuring out how they fit in - whether that's fitting into their friend group, or their family unit, or expectations that people have of them. The dynamics of feeling shy and wanting to put yourself out there versus the kids who are really obviously able to put themselves out there, and then what happens when they have a moment of crisis? I feel like I'm constantly coming back to the same emotional themes. It just is bringing them to different age groups.

Mindy: Feelings are universal, and that is something that we tend to forget. And we tend to believe that we're a little bit more sophisticated as we get older, and while some of the thought processes might be the core, the base, the emotions, and the experiences, do tend to be essentially the same. You're talking about fitting in. The worst thing that can happen to a human being is rejection or exile. Those feelings and those themes, they really do continue through onto adulthood. It's just that maybe in adulthood we're worried about divorce. Whereas in kindergarten, we're just like, I really hope they let me sit with them at lunch.

Kathryn: So my second YA novel, How It Feels to Fly, is about a girl who has anxiety and body image issues, and she has a negative voice in her head. And she kind of has to figure out as a teenager how to fight back against that voice that's cutting her down in her head. And I actually came back to that in the third Class Critters book but with a seven-year-old who gets a negative voice in her head telling her that she's not gonna be able to do this thing that she wants to do, and that she's not good enough. So like you said, it's a universal experience and maybe the sophistication of how you talk about it is different, but it's certainly not a problem that is specific to one age group or one demographic. So yeah, it was really fun to dive back into that same issue, but think about it from how would you counsel a second grader through this situation.

Mindy: So talk to me about the writing and production schedule when we're talking about chapter books, because in the YA world, generally, you want to be producing a book a year. And I believe the same is true of middle grade. So when you're producing chapter books, which are of course shorter and thinner, what is that like in terms of your production schedule?

Kathryn: All three of the chapter books in my series came out in a single calendar year. I was writing them with about six-month turnaround. You know, starting to draft it, to getting it to copy edit. Turn around is definitely a lot tighter, but it also helped me really stay in the world and stay in the voice, 'cause I wasn't working on a ton of things in between. I was really kind of committed to those three books for that year and a half of time. So it actually didn't feel that tight of a timeline because I could write a first draft of it in a couple of weeks easily, and then take the time to revise it and get it to my editor.

Mindy: And what's the typical word count length on those?

Kathryn: Mine are about 10 or 11,000 words. They can go as low as five or six, and those tend to be for maybe early readers, like first graders and second graders. And then up to 10 or 11,000, which is kind of the third or fourth grade. They're for newly independent readers. So they're not for really starting to read, because they do have a little bit more sophisticated language than that. But they're for the kids who are independently reading, and so now they're ready to kind of try a slightly longer book format for them.

Mindy: Same question, kind of in the different arena - talking about jumping between those age categories, and obviously, when you're writing a book a year for YA and they are longer, your advance is going to be a little larger. When you're talking about writing three books a year, when you're writing chapter books, what is your payment like?

Kathryn: I was offered $30,000 for the three books. So 10k a book. And it is my understanding that that is a pretty good pay rate for chapter books. I haven't spoken to a ton of other authors about what they have gotten, but it is my understanding that that is a good advance. Honestly, when you break that down, that is a better per word rate than I received for my YA novels.

Mindy: Yeah.

Kathryn: If you think about the amount of work that you're doing. So I was quite happy with that. Like other book deals, I got the 50% of the total upfront, and then the remaining 50% with each book when I turned that in, 15 up front, and then five and five and five with each book when I turned it in. It's not enough to live on, but comparatively for the amount of actual words that I'm producing, I've found that writing shorter books pays a little bit better.

Mindy: You just said... You're so right, you're writing income not necessarily being enough to live on. I think I said it before on this podcast, but I'll say it again, only about 1% of published writers actually live off of their writing income. Very, very many of us are either working part-time, full-time jobs, we have spouses that supports ways, whether it's insurance and retirement and all of those things, 'cause we don't have that, but also side gigs. So you also, much like myself, operate in the freelance world with writing-related gigs. You have experience with journalism, ghost writing, copy editing. So talk to me about how you get yourself established in those side gigs and also what that is like in terms of that freelance life.

Kathryn: My first job out of college was as a magazine editor at a group of dance magazines. I was and am a dancer as well as a writer, and I did that for a couple of years. And then decided I wanted to go to grad school for fiction and get back into fiction writing, which I had left behind. But basically, when I left that job, I kept accepting journalism freelance assignments from them, and I am still doing that 15 years later - kind of a piecemeal article by article, a couple hundred dollars here, a couple of hundred dollars there - but I enjoy doing it, and I have been doing it for long enough that I'm really immersed in that world. So that's one of my side gigs is writing magazine articles about dance.

I've done freelance copy editing. I've done ghostwriting. For that, I had created a Reedsy profile. I'm sure some of your other guests have talked about Reedsy, the online marketplace where you can advertise your writing and editing services. I have worked with self-published authors and helped them improve their drafts before publication, and got that through Reedsy. I've done marketing copywriting. I, basically a few years ago, decided if someone will pay me to do something related to words, I will probably do it as long as it does not keep me entirely from doing my own writing. You have to earn money, but you don't wanna take on too many extra gigs that you can't actually do the thing that you want to be doing, or the reason that you're doing it all. I should also state that I am very lucky to have a spouse in a full-time tech job, so I do not have to worry about insurance. I have a lean month or a lean year, let's say. Last year I had a lean year. Luckily, I have a spouse who has a full-time steady job, and so I am able to kinda cobble together the freelance lifestyle.

Mindy: It is rough. I also freelance. I do not have a spouse, so I don't have insurance or retirement or anything like that. I obviously release a YA novel once a year, and that is the majority of my income, but I also write underneath a pen name. I do offer editorial services, both under my own shingle, and then also I do operate under a different name in the non-fiction world for people with their book proposals. And of course, I also have this blog and podcast, and I do co-authoring with some friends. Right, you do have to say, "Yes, I need these side gigs in order to keep my head above water, but I also have to be careful that I am not interfering with my main bread and butter - which is my fiction."

Kathryn: Specifically when I was doing the marketing copywriting job, I had an hourly requirement per week. So at least I knew I had a baseline of money that was coming in, unlike articles, which are more kind of here and there. Money comes in as it comes in the same way as published books. All of my creative brain time was going toward this marketing job, and eventually I was like, "I'm not doing the writing that I need to be doing. I'm just writing marketing copy." I had to let go of that, and I need to find a way to bring in enough income to make that happen. But also I'm a parent and child care man costs... I have to say when my daughter was little, I was not earning enough really to justify additional child care. There's that balance also of like how many hours per week can I get someone to watch my kids so that I can write on the hope of one day earning money? Such a juggling act.

Mindy: Yeah. It is hard, and it's something that I struggle with as well. You only have a finite amount of brain power, energy, and time that can be directed towards things, and some of the work that I do is a slug. I would never claim that I absolutely enjoy every minute of everything that I do. I do have the different wheel houses where I find personally that drafting creatively and writing from scratch and creating my own stuff, that drains me pretty quickly. I can and I have spent hours in front of the laptop just grinding and getting a first draft out, but I don't prefer to work that way. I would rather write a thousand words a day, and I can do that fairly quickly. And then I've got the rest of the day to do the work that I might be a little less excited about. But it is nice to switch gears and jump into my editorial brain and just be looking at someone else's work, and I'm not producing content, I'm helping someone polish their own or improve their own. I switch those gears and I start using those different skills that I have, and it is actually a relief to change over.

Kathryn: One of the nice things about the freelance life, about fiction writing not being my only job in general, is it's nice to switch gears. I try to do my fiction first if I can, and it sounds like maybe you do too, to get that kind of on the page. Get that checked off the list. And some days I do not wanna stop, but I have to get to another deadline. But then I find that I'm usually grateful for that because the next morning when I open up my own document, I'm just ready. I've missed it. I've been thinking about it. I'm ready to dive in. If I didn't have other things to do, I don't know if I would always be quite as chomping at the bit to get to my own writing as well.

Mindy: I think that's very true. You get a little bit of fatigue, I believe, creative fatigue when you are pulling everything out of the ether and you're just creating a world on your own. It's a lot of work, and I find it to be mentally taxing. I can do it for hours, if I need to. I don't think it's the best way to operate, and I do find myself scraping the bottom of barrel when it comes to pacing and plot and what happens next, and even dialogue. When I'm first jumping in, I'm fresh, and for me, it's just like a workout. It's like when I first start, it seems hard. I'm fresh, but it's hard. And then once I get warmed up, I'm moving. And then at the end, I'm like, "Okay, I don't have anything else left." Like I have given it my all for this half an hour, an hour, and I can feel it almost physically taxing me when I'm writing. I know when it's time to quit because I am no longer producing my best stuff.

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Mindy: So talk to me about submission, the submission world, and submissions slumps, because so many of the listeners I know are still struggling. They're still in the query trenches or out on submission, and that is a long lonely journey. It is something that can take the heart out of you pretty quickly, and I know it's something that you have experience with.

Kathryn: I am one of those where my debut actually moved really quickly through the process. It wasn't the first book I ever wrote. It was the second, but I landed the first agent who read the manuscript and she had minimal critiques for it. It went out on submission. The first editor who read it really liked it and ended up offering on it. And so it felt very smooth and very straight forward, and I was like, "I have arrived." They bought my option book without too much fuss, and so I had one, two, here we go. And I think it's pretty easy to feel in that instance that, okay, the hardest part is done and, spoiler alert, the hardest part was not done. Unfortunately, my second book underperformed as many books do. 'Cause it's so hard to know what the expectations are and what kind of benchmark you're trying to meet, and trends come and go. And my books were contemporary, my young adult novels, and by the time my second one came out that tread was kind of on the ebb. So that book didn't do very well, and then I didn't have numbers. And so then my third book, that option book was passed on. And at the time I thought, "Okay, I just gotta work on something new." I went on submission five times over the course of about three and a half years between my second YA novel and selling my chapter books. I wrote three different books, could not break through, could not sell them. I wrote another young adult novel from scratch, and then I wrote a middle grade novel. Took it back to the drawing board again and re-wrote it from scratch, and it still didn't sell. By which point, I have put many years of my life into this book and I'm like, "Okay. Maybe I just need to take a step back and let this one go." 

I like to talk to people about the submission slump because it feels really, really terrible when you're in it. When you're like, maybe the books I've already published are the last ones that I'm ever going to publish. And it's really hard some days to just keep working and to keep sitting down at your computer when you no longer believe that maybe anything is going to come of it. And what really saved me was this transition into chapter books because it was starting something entirely new. Exploring a new age group. It almost felt like play again, in a way that writing hadn't felt like play in a really long time, and it had felt so fraught. Like if I don't sell this, my career is over, and then I didn't sell it. And then I'm like, ugh, how do I write another thing? And if I don't sell that my career is over. And so going into the chapter book world, it felt like play. And I spent a while just playing with those ideas and kind of refining it, and it felt really exciting to be trying something new and getting feedback on it and making it better. And knowing also that my YA track record wouldn't matter as much when going out with a new age group. I like to talk to people about that because I've been there and I did get through to the other side, but also the importance of finding the joy in it again, in whatever route that takes for you. The importance of finding play and a sense where it's not... Where every word doesn't feel like you're dragging it out of yourself because it matters so very much. But maybe you can just play around with something. Maybe you can try something new. Maybe you can find a way to explore in a way you haven't explored before, and maybe that will be enough to kind of find you through the other side, the j.

Mindy: The joy can get zapped from you pretty quickly when you are now writing and being a creator for a living. That is something that I found pretty early on, because at this point, the only book that I ever had written before it sold, you have to have a book that's finished and when you're writing it, you really are doing it for yourself. You have goals. You have things that you want to accomplish with it, but you're just writing your book. That is very freeing.

So I've been publishing for 10 years now. I think I have 12 books out, and so 11 of those I sold on spec. I sold them by writing the synopsis and saying, "This is what the book will be." And the publishers were like, "Yes. We'll buy that." So then you're locked in and you're writing this book, and this is your bread and butter. This is how you make a living. And while I love having the security of knowing that the book is already sold, it does take away some of that just inherent joy of writing the book for yourself. Writing it for the just pleasure of discovering what happens. I am a pantser, so for me, I am just kind of making things up as I got most of the time. Even though I do present a synopsis, it is pretty loose, and I sell it that way purposely. So I'm not married to anything. That little bit of discovery kind of can get taken away from you when you are not writing outside of contract. I do think that when you're writing with the concern of my career, when you're writing with a concern of my finances, it can kind of rob you of some of that joy.

Kathryn: Then it feels like work. It always feels like work, 'cause it is work, but when it just feels like a slog, that's just such not a creative space.

Mindy: It's not. It's a pressurized space, and it's an economical space, and it's a worrying space. And none of those things are helpful to creativity, I don't think. It's definitely a first world problem to say that now I have to write to contract. It does take away some of that fun which is one of the reasons why I started writing under a pen name and co-authoring with friends and just writing some things that are just for fun. And that are vaguely silly, and I can crack out 2000 words in, an hour, hour and a half, and just have a good time with it. My name isn't attached to it. It's indie publishing. If we do well, that's great for us. If we don't do well, we don't have a P&L sheet. It is very freeing to not have to worry about this in terms of how does this novel affect my career?

Kathryn: So my book that's coming out in 2024, the co-authored book, actually began as that fun side project. I am writing this book with MarcyKate Connolly, who has published many middle grade novels. It will be my middle grade debut, officially. I approached her about co-writing this book in 2018. So this was before I had sold Class Critters. This is when I'm in the depths of my slump, but I had an idea to do a middle school X-Files with two girls researching crop circles for a science fair project.

Mindy: Nice.

Kathryn: And I wanted to co-write it 'cause I wanted to go back and forth between the Mulder kid and the Scully kid. So we have our true believer in paranormal phenomena and we have our science-minded skeptic who just wants to win the science fair. And I approached MarcyKate about joining me. We both were new moms at the time. She was juggling many other contracted projects. I was still trying desperately to get one of my other books that was on submission sold. So we started working on it very slowly and kind of in between other things and throwing ideas back and forth and chapters back and forth. And it was always that breath of fresh air. It was always that joy to come back to in between other things, and it always felt hopeful and exciting and fun. Obviously, I'm super, super excited that it is actually going to be published. But that book has brought me so much joy for so many years at this point that it just makes me smile that it exists and that I got to write with a friend and that in between other things, I always had that to come back to.

Mindy: Absolutely, and one of the beautiful things about co-writing is that you walk away from the book and then when you come back, it got longer and you didn't do anything.

Kathryn: Yes. You leave a chapter with a cliffhanger and then the next time you find out how it continues.

Mindy: Yeah, it's lovely. I love co-authoring. I get a lot of questions about co-authoring because some people are very curious about that process and how you give up some of the creative control. I had never done it before, and it was something that was new to me when my friends approached me and asked me if I wanted to be involved. And I was a little bit worried because I can have some control issues just like in life as a human. But when it's a shared concept, because what I do under my pen name with my friends is not... Someone comes forward with an idea and then we all work on it. It's all three of us working together to come up with an idea. I think if I had my own original idea and I needed support in some way... Let's say, I had an idea and it wasn't something that I could pull off alone because one of the POVs is so far outside of my experience, or because there would be so much research involved that it might not actually be possible for me to execute it well... In that case? Yes. I think it is a lot easier to share your creative space and to share your world and your ideas. I have not yet had an original idea that I invite someone else into. 

I have had other people do that for me and ask me to come on and help them with certain projects, and I have really enjoyed it. I do love the collaborative aspect. The key for me, I have found, with my co-writing partners, there's multiple of them, is that you can't be precious about your words. You can't be convinced that the way that you did it is the right way, and there isn't another way. Most of my writing co-authoring happens with two other friends and we write over each other. We don't have POVs that we each take a POV and write that person. We each have our own strengths, but someone will write a chapter and then the next person goes over that, makes some changes, some fixes, and then writes further. And then the third person comes in, goes over what the other two of us have dabbled in. They make some changes. They go over what I wrote and we're always... All of our fingers are in everything. So I have friends in real life that have read some of the stuff that's written under my pen name, which I don't share it generally. There are some people that know and they'll read something and they'll think it's really funny, or they'll really like a certain scene, and they'll text me or email me. And they'll be like, "Oh my gosh. This scene where this happened, I know that you wrote that. There's no doubt in my mind that you wrote this piece of dialogue." I'll look at it, and I'll be like, "I don't know if I did or not." I can't even remember because all three of us are so involved in every aspect of the text. So how do you and MarcyKate approach it? Do you have split POVs where one of you writes each character or do you both have your fingers in each of them?

Kathryn: We each took one character. So MarcyKate writes the Mulder girl, the believer in paranormal phenomena, and I write the Scully girl. And at the beginning, we really were just going back and forth from chapter to chapter. We came up with a general outline - a beat sheet. We had some long brainstorming calls, and then we just kind of tossed it back and forth to one another. And we only really dipped into the other's chapters, either when she would write a line of dialogue for my character that I'd be like, "Eh, that doesn't sound like her," or vice versa. And then through the editorial process, it got more and more merged because we were really conscious of wanting the two girls to have distinct voices. Because if you're going to alternate chapters, they have to have distinct voices.

Through the editorial process and the longer we worked with each other, the more confident and comfortable we both got dipping in and out of each other's chapters and really making notes. We use Track Changes and comments a lot. What would you think about changing this to this? Or do we really need this paragraph? We just turned in the book to copy edits, and so we are just beginning to draft out our proposal in some early chapters for what we hope will be the second book in the series, 'cause we envision our two girls investigating a lot of paranormal phenomena. Now, I'm finding that even though we're still alternating, we're already a lot more comfortable going into each other's chapters then we were when we started book one. We're starting at a slightly ahead of the curve place as compared to when we were starting to draft the first book. Which is good because hopefully the second book won't take five years to draft.

Mindy: Yeah, you learn those skills. You learn how to work together, and it changes according to your writing partners as well. So I have another person that I write with that hopefully we'll be able to bring our stuff into the published world at some point, and we write adult stuff together. And he writes the male character, and I write female character. And we don't cross over, and we don't intercede with each other's chapters. So it can change according to who you're working with.

Kathryn: And you have to get to know the person. I knew MarcyKate socially because we debuted in the same year, and I knew we got along. And I knew I liked her writing, and she liked my writing. But working together is an experiment and you figure it out a little bit as you go.

Mindy: Last thing, why don't you let listeners know where they can find your books and where they can find you online.

Kathryn: So my website is Kathryn Holmes dot com. K-A-T-H-R-Y-N H-O-L-M-E-S dot com. And I'm most active on Instagram. It's Kathryn underscore Holmes. It's the same on Twitter and yeah, my next book will be The Thirteenth Circle with MarcyKate Connolly.

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Hayley Chewins Talks Writing Upper Middle Grade And How to Handle A Revise & Resubmit

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Mindy: I'm here with Hayley Chewins, and we're gonna be talking about writing upper middle grade, which can be a really tricky audience age to settle on voice wise. And a little later on, we're also going to be talking about the process of an R and R that's revising and resubmitting, which can be extremely frustrating and high stress. So we're going to cover all those things. But first, Haley, why don't you tell us a little bit about yourself? 

Hayley: My name is Hayley Chewins. I am an author. I write middle grade fantasy books and my books, like you said, they skew upper middle grade. They're a little bit on the older side of middle grade. On um, they skew a little bit darker, too. So they’re fantasy books, but especially my latest book, is kind of borderline fantasy horror, dark fantasy. And I also coach writers, help writers to write more intuitively and to get in touch with their unique voice to come up with their most original ideas ever. And I just also launched a new online writing course called 100 Ideas in 10 Days, which helps you to come up with original ideas that are fascinating and interesting to you as a writer. So I do a couple of different things. Yeah, I'm really excited to be here so thanks for having me. I’m excited to chat everything middle grade and revising. I've done a lot of revising and resubmitting. 

Mindy: It's a frustrating place to be. It's like almost there. So why don't you tell us first a little bit about specifically writing upper middle grade? Because you're right. That is very much an area where you can kind of edge into some darker thematics and even push the envelope a little bit with your content. So why don't you talk about writing for upper middle grade and cross over potential for YA and where you see that age range falling? 

Hayley: So it's really interesting because I didn't set out to do it consciously. But my first book, The Turn Away Girls, when it got published, it was kind of like, You know, they put the age on the back of the book, so it was categorized 10 to 14 which is obviously on the older side. Usually, middle grade is like 9 to 12. I guess it depends on the reader.  I don't ever like to Generalize and say, like all 12 year olds are like this. So all 14 year olds are like this. Yeah, so it depends on the reader. So, like a 10 year old reader who has a more mature, maybe reading level or just more emotional maturity might get Just as much out of it as a 14 year old reader. 

It wasn't a conscious thing I didn't set out to go like I want to write up the middle grade, but I think just the themes that I covered in my books just tend to be a little bit heavier. Like the Turn Away Girls is about an island where music is kind of magical. And boys are allowed to make music, and girls are not. And there's a certain group of girls called the Turn Away girls who are forced to turn music into gold so obviously has, like, feminist themes, But on top of that, it also the main character has anxiety. I didn't intentionally do this, but my books tend to have mental health themes, even though they’re fantasy books. So I think it's because of that that they were kind of categorized on more of the upper end. Um, you know, they're not gory. I don't write about like crushes or first love or anything like that, that's usually, that's more YA. I think it's just kind of the heaviness of the themes, sometimes more so then, like the actual content of the book. 

The other thing is that my writing style does tend towards the more lyrical. It's not necessarily the most accessible language for a 10 year old. For a nine year old, it's actually very mysterious to me because I think as a writer we just create the book. And then, in a way, it's like the publisher's job to kind of categorize and market the book. So I didn't query my books as upper middle grade. I just queried them as middle grade, but it ended up being categorized that way.

Mindy: You’re right at that point, you know, marketing is making some decisions. Publishers and book stores are making those decisions, and sometimes even librarians and parents are making those decisions. I like what you said about not forming a hard line for age ranges yourself. You're not necessarily saying I'm writing for 13 year olds. I was a YA librarian for about 14 years. I can tell you, as I'm sure you're aware, too. There's such a broad range. What one 13 year old can handle, the other one simply can't. And so you're right. You would never, You would never say This book is for 13 to 15 or this book is for 10 to 12 because the exposure levels are different, even vocabulary, but also thematics. It could be very different from one child to the next. And I like what you're saying, too, about how you write lyrically. Lyrical writing can't work for every middle grader. Sometimes they need that cemented, rather than being asked to think about larger concepts. I don't know again like you're saying, I really do believe that it all depends on the middle grader themselves and where they're at. And I know a lot of middle graders do rely on those gatekeepers like teachers, librarians and parents to make sure that they're getting what they need. If they need something a little more stimulating than the upper middle grade can sometimes be a great fit.

Hayley: I do think there's a sweet spot that gets kind of missed because of that, and not to generalize about. Like all 13 year olds like this little 12 year olds are like that, but it is kind of like middle grade. And then there's, like, this younger YA that doesn't always get tapped into. And then, Like a lot of YA is like you just plunge straight into, like, really dark stuff, which, of course, teens need, um but yeah, there is, like, this unexplored kind of middle grade area, and it's interesting that we call it upper middle grade. We don't call it lower YA. I don't know if that's just cause lower YA sounds weird. I don't know, but what about younger YA? I totally agree that, you know, Children, just like adults, are individuals. They can't really be categorized in terms of age. And anyone who's ever interacted with you know, a group of Children knows that not every 14 year old is the same. And, like you said, the emotional maturity, the intellectual stuff, what that child has also gone through in their life because I remember being 12 and sometimes feeling like reading some books just felt too, too young for me because they just didn't resonate with me, even though they were technically written for 12 year olds.

I think the other thing with writing middle grade or writing YA, that can be quite tricky is that when you're writing, you kind of write for yourself and you write for the 12 year old or the 14 year old or a 16 year old that you were. I don't write my books from a didactic point of view. I don't write them from the perspective of being a teacher or a parent. I really write them as a writer and as an artist. And of course, I tapped into how I felt when I was 12 or 10. But yeah, I'm not kind of looking to pass on any kind of message, and I'm not really thinking too hard about, you Know, how the book is going to be marketed or categorized, even though, obviously, if you're querying, you have to know that. You have to know I'm writing a middle grade book or I'm writing a YA book. But I think it's something that Children's writers maybe have to navigate that maybe people who write for adults don't really have to navigate that thing. Like you just write the book. You don't have to say who is it for necessarily. It’s that dance between like the artistry of it, Which is like you're writing a book that you would want to read. But then also, of course, keeping in mind the age of your reader at the same time, and sometimes that's a really difficult line to walk, and I don't have any clear answers on it. To be honest.

Mindy: I was actually signing some stock this weekend, and the bookstore owner asked me, Do you have any plans for writing middle grade? And I said No, because, honestly, I think it's too hard, and I mean that. I don't think I could write it. I don't know that I can walk that balance that you're talking about because I write for teens. I write Dark and I write gritty and I'm not making any choices that are self censoring. I write for teens. I don't have any published books for adults, but I have written books that would be marketed to adults that are as of yet unpublished, and it was the same process for me because my reputation, my brand is that I'm always going to push the envelope. I'm gonna be gritty, and I'm gonna maybe cross some lines so I don't have to worry about that when I'm writing. It is part of what my reputation has been built into. So I don't know that I would ever be able to ask myself those questions. I think I would be so cautious that I couldn't be honest in my writing. So I think it takes a very special skill set to write in middle grade. 

Hayley: Well, I don't know if it's a skill set or if it's more just that you really connect with that age group. I think that people who write middle grade most of the writers I know, right middle grade. They just have this feeling of like, I want to write about how I felt when I was 10 when I was 12. Like they feel very connected to that version of themselves, and they can remember it vividly, and they have a sense of deep respect for how it felt to be 10 11 12. And it is. It's such a different feeling, too. When you're 14 15 16 or 16 17 18 on, But it's really interesting that you said about about middle grade because I kind of feel like that about - Not that I wouldn't be able to push the envelope like not the same problem - but I often feel like I just don't know how I would do it like I don't know how I would write about being a teenager, and I don't know if that's just me, like I'm not as connected to my teen self or if I don't get book ideas that are, like, suited to YA or what it is. But yeah, I think it's really interesting how some people just gravitate more towards the one or the other. And then other people can do everything, and it seems like they could just shape shift. I'm very jealous of those people. 

Mindy: Me too. Me, too. I want to circle back a little bit. You mentioned there's no category such as lower YA. Um, there's not. We do use the term clean YA, sometimes. YA that is a little more sweet, naive, and I don't mean that in a negative way, but sweet and naive where they’re characters or teenagers, But there's no sex that there's no drugs. There's no, you know, usually no language, clean YA. It is something that really kind of started to surface, that distinction has come up like I would say, maybe in the past, like three years or so. YA can be very dark and like maybe 10,15 years ago, that was really celebrated like Look, we're really pushing the envelope here and we can go there for teens now and I think that's wonderful because that's where I live. But then we kinda, and the market in general really leaned that way for a while. And there were a lot of librarians I know and also teens that were like, Hey, where's you know? Where's my sweet romcom? Where's my book that doesn't have someone dying in it. Clean YA has kind of had a resurgence, especially now, during the pandemic. People need an uplifting read. People need to maybe not necessarily read about something depressing when we're all living it. That's my answer for when you ask as far as age range. We do have that distinction of clean YA, which is for any age, but it's more of a content descriptor rather than an age range. 

Hayley: How do you feel about the term clean? Which kind of suggests that the other kind of YA is dirty.

Mindy: I don't mind it so much just because as when I was a librarian, I mean, that was part of what I did, because I did all the cataloging. So while I didn't read every single book, obviously in the collection, I would flip through. My eyes were very trained to pick up cursing. I can scan a lot of pages and pick up, you know, drugs, sex, whatever. Ii did that specifically. Just so I knew. And, you know, I had, like, a mental running What kids are going to want this book? What kids are not ready for this book, things like that. Also, to keep myself in good standing with parents and administrators. I don't necessarily have a problem with the word clean because my books are usually called, and I do like the term - gritty, which doesn't necessarily carry dirty with it. But I think the clean distinction is, um, more of an indicator of we're not going there and you know I respect that. And I certainly don't think that clean YA, that the term is denigrating to like what I write. Also most of the people I know write Gritty the way I do. If somebody wanted to call it Dirty we’d be like, Hey, that's fine. That markets very well. 

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Hayley: I guess I'm more thinking about the teams who might encounter that term because I'm just thinking about the idea that, like certain kinds of behavior, are dirty or wrong? 

Mindy: No, I get it and that's, That's a good consideration. I agree. Like I would never - And I think it's more of something that's of reference for the gatekeepers. Like I would never hand a book to a kid and say, You'll like this. It's clean. You know, I would never hand a book and be like, you’ll like this. It's dirty, you know? It's like I would never make that distinction to them. It would just be something that I was privately holding. 

Hayley: I think that's why librarians are so important, especially youth librarians, because, you need to get to know the kids who are coming to your library and then on. You have conversations with them and figure out what books they're going to suit them. Such a specialized and important job.

Mindy: It is, and it's something an algorithm can't do. So there's a shout out from my librarians. 

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Mindy: So let's move on to talk about revising and resubmitting for listeners who don't know that's called an R and R. If you get an R and R, what that means is that an agent has read your query they requested pages, usually requested the full, read it and said, Oh, you're so close, but not quite. It isn't necessarily rejection. What it is is an agent telling you these are the weaknesses. I'd like to see you strengthen them and come back around. I want to read it again. So A and R and R can feel a little deflating, but at the same time, it should be encouraging. It's another step in the ladder, so why don't you talk a little bit about that R and R process. 

Hayley: So I was clearing The Turnaway Girls. My agent. Her name is Patricia Nelson. She requested pages and then requested the full manuscript. She got back to me and she said, I really loved the voice in this, like I love your writing and I love the concept of the idea. But there were some significant pacing and kind of plotting problems. I still struggle with plotting and painting. I am by no means an expert, but back then, especially, I was kind of still learning how to write, to write a book and to structure a book so well. First, she asked, like, would I be willing to do a revise and resubmit and I was like, Yes, of course I would love to do it. She sent me notes, and she sent me a bunch of books that she recommended. I read them. One of them was Save The Cat by Blake Snyder, which is a great story structure book if you struggle with story structure. 

So I read the books and I did the changes. Patricia is amazing and that she always gives notes that she kind of points out, points out what's not working, but she'll never tell me like you have to change it in this way. She kind of did that. She gave me broad structural feedback in terms of, you know, where the pacing was lagging and like how the structure of the story wasn't working. And I actually ended up changing quite a lot about the story, like about the world, too, because I find that when you're revising, oftentimes you change one thing and then you have to change another thing because it's all interlinked that it's all tied together and knotted together. 

So I had started during that revise and resubmit for her, and I was very happily doing it. I was really excited to get the notes because I've also heard that, you know, if agents do that - and this is absolutely true - if an agent offers you a revise and resubmit and send you notes and they're taking the time to to really look at your manuscript closely and send your feedback, that means that they really are interested in your book. So it really is, like, so close like you're almost there, but not quite. So I was happily working away on this revise and resubmit, and I ended up getting an offer from another agent on the original manuscript cause I had a couple of fulls out.

So I told Patricia that that had happened and she was like, Okay, just send me like, the first three chapters of what you've revised on. I did that and then she signed me based on those revised chapters. So I actually didn't finish the entire revise and we resubmit. Um, if that hadn't happened, obviously I would have finished it and then sent it to her and hopefully, you know, that sort of happened, Um, she sort of offered me representation. So, yeah, she's been my agent since 2015 and we actually work really collaboratively together to this day, and it was actually a really good thing, I think, that that happened because it gave me a sense of what it would be like to work with her. And I just knew that we clicked on an editorial level. But then I did another R and R later on when we went on sub and got an offer to revise and resubmit from my editor at Candlewick again, a very similar experience. 

My editor said she absolutely loved the book, Loved the voice, loved the world and there was some story problems. She wrote me a really in depth revising, resubmit edit letter. I think it was 12 pages long. It was actually really great because it gave me kind of an idea of what it would be like to work with her even before we work together. The reason why I did it also is because in the edit letter and in her email, it was really clear that she really understood the story and loved the heart of the story and just really wanted to help me to make it the best book that it could possibly be. I've had quite good experiences, with revising and resubmitting. 

I did another revise and resubmit, actually on the manuscript that I queried before The Turnaway Girls that actually ended up in a rejection. But that also kind of taught me that I think what happened with that, is that I kind of over revised the book. Um, I don't know if you've ever done that, but I kind of revised, like the book out of the book. And it was kind of like, unrecognizable by the time I sent it. But I do believe like, everything happens for a reason. I'm one of those people. So I'm glad that I had that experience because just every experience that you have like that, when you're querying is just like a nugget of gold because you're learning how to query, you’re learning how to interact with agents. You're learning how to structure a story, you're learning how to write the books that you were born to write. And I do think that first book that I queried that I was getting too a sense of who I was as a writer and kind of what I wanted to say and the kind of book that I wanted to write, that I wasn't quite there yet. So I think that's also probably why it wasn't, it didn't end up being a successful revise and resubmit, but it taught me so much. 

Mindy: That really is one of the most healthy and positive, and best ways to look at a revise and resubmit is that you just have professional feedback on your work, and that's something you got for Free too. That is something that is invaluable. And even if a revise and resubmit, because the other thing and it can be a frustrating element of the R and R, is that every editor has their own style. So if you revise and resubmit heavily like you were, you were just saying, If you revise and resubmit to really kind of fit a particular editor or you revise so deeply that it doesn't have a lot of resemblance to your original concept or your original voice, sometimes that can be highly frustrating.

I actually had an experience and I won't say which one of my books but it's one of my published books, where it was acquired, and I had gone through an editorial process and had already done a pass, and it was dense -  like this was not a simple book. And the editor I had been working with really wanted things to be a little more spoon fed. I did a version that was more of a walk through. They had a little more spoon feeding for my readers. Did that edit, turned it in, and in the meantime, this editor left publishing and I was handed to a different editor. She was a senior editor. She read it. She got back to me. You're really illustrating some things that I don't necessarily need, think, need to be. And I said, Well, that was because I did a revision based on notes from this other editor. And so the senior editor said, Why don't you send me your original manuscript that we bought? And so I did, and she's like, This is the one I'm working with. I like this one better, And I was like, Okay, so I had put in a revision in on a book and it was essentially scrapped. But that was okay, because I preferred the choices that the senior editor was making as well. It was an interesting experience. It was a little bit frustrating, but at the same time, I learned, you know, not to necessarily write to, Please an individual and a specific vision. Yeah, it's very hard to dissect what is yours and what is being imposed upon your work. 

Hayley: Exactly. I think especially starting out like when you're first querying or when you know, your first kind of starting out, with a finished manuscript, and you might have critique partners, but at that time, also, you if you don't have a sense, you didn't have, like, a very strong sense of who I was and my voice. And I think this is just actually a general problem. Not necessarily a writing problem, but but, you know, like having a real sense of conviction about your work is quite hard when you're just starting out and you kind of just You just desperately want an agent. You want to get published, you want this dream of yours to come true. And sometimes it feels like Okay, so it. I'll do anything, you know. If you want me to change everything about this book, I'll do it. 

I get what you're saying that like even though I always think of like a good answer, is really trying To, see your vision and then try to bring that vision into fruition in the best possible way in that situation where you have someone who's just trying to foster your project and get it to be the best version of itself at the same time, they're also individual people, and they have their own individual taste and they have different ways of solving problems or different ways of approaching the work. So, yeah, it is really It's a really hard line to walk with each project. You kind of have to know what is the heart of this book. What is the one thing that I would not be able to take out because if I took out that thing, it would die basically. And that's a really cool idea. 

But then at the same time, it's like, Well, how do I know what that thing is? And I guess sometimes you have to just try and have, like trial and error and see like Is the core feeling still alive, If I take this out? Because some stuff is kind of ornamental, almost. I don't know something that isn't necessarily part of the nuts and bolts of the story at the same time, style can sometimes be. And that's nuts and bolts thing you might say you might feel like, No, this is the voice of the book, and it needs to sound like this. It can't be in very clean, straightforward pros. It has to be like strange, pretty prose, and that's what the book is. 

Um, but yeah, it's hard to do that as a young writer, I found it hard. Even now. I mean, I am still quite a young writer. To be honest, my second book is coming out in a week, Um, and it feels super surreal. But yeah, definitely. Like five years ago, it was much harder for me to know, like what is me and what is them and what is like the crystallized center of the book and what is like the stuff that I can change and remove and because I've always liked to think of myself as like happy to be flexible. I also think that ideas are so stretchy and so capacious. If you have an idea for a book and it's not working, you can always find a way to make it work. Sometimes that means changing it quite substantially, But you can make it work. It's really hard.

Mindy: It is. It's very hard to do, and especially when you are a younger writer or you're unsure of yourself and what your own voice might be. Yet it is difficult. Uh, that's the fine line. That's the fine line. And I think you got to go with your gut. I had an interesting experience when I was querying my first book. It's a post apocalyptic survival set in a world with very little water, and I had two agents offering to represent me. I'd been querying for 10 years, dying for some attention, and suddenly I had two agents offering to represent me. One of them had only sold one book, and one of them had sold like 30 that month like it was ridiculous. But the highly highly successful agent was also more of a romance agent. She represented A lot more of like happily ever afters. 

And one of the things that we talked about on the phone-  my character's love interest dies in the book - spoiler warning, but he dies and that's because that's how I write and I write gritty and I write hard and I write rough and this is a harsh world and you're not going to get a happily ever after. And she didn't want that to happen. She wanted him to live. I talked to the agent that's only sold one book, and she's like, No, I love that you killed him. That was awesome. And I'm like, Well, you're going to be the better fit for me, like that's all there is to it. You know, sometimes you just have to ask yourself like you said, like, What's the thing that you're not going to trade in? And I was not going to trade in a happily ever after like that was not happening for me. Really, it is gut. I think whenever you have feedback from an agent or an editor, even a critique partner, you do need to consider it and ask yourself, Does this go against my prime core for this book? Do I feel very strongly about this and then ask yourself why, it's like, Do I feel strongly about this just because I can't accept criticism? Or do I feel strongly about this? Because it's the essence of the book?

Hayley: Or is it just my ego, Like am I just feeling a bit bruised hearing this criticism. You have that wish for someone would just be like this is amazing. And when they come back and say, Well, actually, this is great, but this isn't quite working for me or that isn't quite working. You do have to be quite self aware and emotionally mature, I think, to be like, Well, is it just me feeling a little bit like Bruised about this? Is it just my ego rearing its head? And what I find often helps is that if you just read it first and then kind of step away, give it some time and then come back because often the first time you read something, it is difficult to read criticism, but if you have a little bit of distance, if you go away for a couple hours and come back, or for a day or two and then come back. You can usually read it a second or third time with a bit more distance, and then maybe you can make more level headed choices about what to accept and what not to accept. 

And I also think that it's important. Maybe, and maybe part of the thing of growing as a writer is understanding what your weaknesses are and what your strengths are. So I'm very aware that, like I have certain strengths, but I also have weaknesses. And so if I get feedback about those weak points, I'm like pretty much always like my agent is right or my critique partners are right, because I yeah, there's just some things that come really naturally and then other things that you have to work really hard on. I've never met a writer who doesn't have at least one area that they feel like This is like my problem area, like, I just have to work so hard on getting this right. 

Mindy: It is hard to be circumspect about your own writing, but you're completely correct that time and distance is what helps make that possible. Real quick, why don't you tell us a little bit about your class 100 Ideas in how many days? 

Hayley: 10 days. I know it sounds a little outrageous. Um, it is actually a self paced tool, so you don't have to do it in 10 days. I just thought it sounded really cool to come up with 100 ideas in 10 days. It's about following your intuition and finding your voice and coming up with your most original ideas ever. And it's about how you can make a book idea, meaning not just a new story idea, but like a new idea for how to move the scene forward or an idea for a character or an idea for world building. You could make an idea pretty much out of anything. This is my belief in life and in writing. And I got to a point when I was studying law and suddenly didn't have time to write, didn't have time to read, and I was like, Oh, God, this is actually a really important thing to me. Like I can't actually live my life without this thing, without writing, And that was when I kind of admitted to myself like that I really wanted to write books, which meant I had to finish a book all the way from the beginning to the end, which meant that I had to somehow have a book idea. And so, even though I had, like, this intense desire to write a book, I didn't really have a sense of my own voice or what I wanted to say, and I didn't feel like I had any ideas. I didn't feel like my point of view was particularly interesting. 

At that time I was also reading mainly adult literary fiction, and that's what I thought I wanted to write. And so I wrote thousands and thousands of words, many manuscripts for adults. Before I started writing for Children, I was bored with myself. I had no idea what to write about, and I didn't know how to tap into that and how to like, think of something interesting to write about. So that's kind of why I created this course. 100 Ideas in 10 Days is basically four lectures and 10 lessons, so they're all audio. It's an online classroom. You can log in and do it all in one goal, or you could do it really slowly. You could do it over 10 months or 10 years, or however long, like however you want to pace it. There are reflections about idea, generation and idea development. So, just like general principles. And then there are 10 exercises, and each of the exercises helps you to generate 10 ideas. So by the end of it, you have 100 new story ideas. Even if you start out and you don't really have a vision for your writing by the end of it, you'll have a clear idea of what kind of a writer you wanna be. I just kind of wanted to make something out of love and put it out into the world. And, yeah, I hope that people get something out of it. 

Mindy: Let listeners know where they can find you online, where they can find your upcoming book and also how they can take that class. 

Hayley: So I'm at HayleyChewins.com. If you go to HayleyChewins.com/100-ideas, you'll find the 100 Ideas in 10 Days Course. And yeah, my book that's coming out in a week is called The Sisters of StrayGarden Place. It's out with Candlewick Press, 13th of October 2020. Kind of like a Gothic dark fantasy, middle grade about sisterhood and forgiveness and family secrets. Yeah, I really hope people like it. That's me. I'm also on Twitter at Hayley_Chewins.

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Michael Tougias On Adapting His Own Work For Younger Audiences

Mindy: Today’s guest is Michael Tougias, the author of many true rescue stories, including The Finest Hours, which was adapted into a Disney film. His latest, Into The Blizzard has been adapted for middle grade readers from his adult non-fiction book about the Blizzard of 1978. Michael joined me today to talk about the difference between seeking publication with fiction versus non-fiction, and the challenge of adapting his own work for a younger audience.

Mindy:             Much of my audience is comprised of aspiring authors and as a published nonfiction writer, it would be great if you could talk about the difference in the publication process when writing nonfiction. I know some things are similar and some things are different, such as writing a proposal versus writing a query. So if you could just talk a little bit about the process of nonfiction publishing and the attempt to acquire an agent with nonfiction and that process as it differs from fiction.

Michael:          I think the nonfiction is easier in terms of the proposal level and securing a publisher or agent. And the reason I say that is you don't need to have the whole book completed to land a contract. My proposals are usually about say five to six pages. That proposal alone with even just one or two sample chapters could be enough to land a contract. Whereas with fiction they're probably gonna want to see the entire book. If you're a brand new author, you're, you know, there's a lot more work going into it, not knowing what the final result will be. Proposal for nonfiction is pretty straight forward. I open up with the concept of the book, then I'll talk about the author's credentials. That doesn't mean you have to have a book published under your belt, but maybe you have expertise in this area or you've been working in the field or studying this particular topic.

Michael:          The nitty gritty gets down to the what I would call the meat of the proposal, where you're, you're describing usually in a chronological order of how this narrative nonfiction is going to flow. You're basically telling the story in a concise form. And finally I usually mentioned similar books and I think that's helpful because oftentimes the uh, editor or publisher will know some of the more popular similar books. And then you're explaining the similarities but also the differences. What makes your book unique. So in fact, I think nonfiction might be a little a little easier.

Mindy:             When you talk about your topics and you were saying when there are other books that have touched upon the topics that you're using as comp titles, you illustrate how yours is similar yet also different and is bringing something new to the table. For nonfiction writers, should they be looking to touch on topics that are of current debate that perhaps are... obviously like global warming would be a good one for the moment. Is it important to be touching on things that are topical at the moment or is it more important to try to focus on a topic that's going to be evergreen?

Michael:          I wouldn't get too hung up on trying to focus on the topic of the moment because you know, for example, many of my books are historical in nature. For example, I did a book Above and Beyond about some lesser known events during the Cuban missile crisis. At the very end of the proposal, I say this is topical because of the current tensions with Iran and North Korea, but that's really the gist of the book that just has these little known events that almost put us on the brink of war during the Cuban missile crisis. So yeah, I think you've got to follow your path. And in terms of what is it that you're bringing new to the table, whether it's history or whether it's another topic and not get too hung up on what's going on currently, because by the time your book gets published, what's current now, it would be totally out of date and out of vogue.

Mindy:             Yes, that's very true. So is it similar to a fiction publishing then in that if you're going the traditional route, it's going to take anywhere from 18 months to two years to move from manuscript to published finished product?

Michael:          Yes. Maybe a little shorter in some cases. Um, I just signed a contract for a memoir, which are very hard to get published because everybody wants to write those. But I've done one in the past, but they're kind of outdoor humor like Bill Bryson A Walk in the Woods. Mine was called, There's A Porcupine in my Outhouse. This recent deal was have the manuscript to them by this April and I actually just sent it off last night. So I was ahead of schedule and the book will be published the following April.

Mindy:             So let's talk about your newest release Into the Blizzard. It is geared toward a middle-grade audience. So why did you make the decision to move away from adult and put your foot into the middle grade realm?

Michael:          Well, a while back, probably four years ago, I was connected with Christy Ottaviano, one of the editors at Holt for middle reader books. And we did, uh, The Finest Hours as a middle reader book. Now that was my adult book that became a Disney movie. The Finest Hours is about the greatest coast guard rescue ever. You know, that was an easy sell to have that book turned into a middle reader. But I found that she and I worked so well together, editor and writer that I said, why don't we do a couple of my other adult books, adapt them for middle readers? And we've just been clicking on all cylinders. So that's how Into the Blizzard came about. That's the, that's the title for the young adult version of my adult book, which was titled Ten Hours Until Dawn, you know, same topic, but one is for adults,. Ten Hours is for adults and Into the Blizzard is for young adults.

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Mindy:             And when you go about that adaptation, what are you looking for as the author of the original material? What are you looking to do with that to turn it into something that is more approachable for the middle grade reader, beyond a vocabulary, obviously. What is your approach? Are you changing structure or what are you looking at to say, how do I make this accessible to middle grade?

Michael:          Uh, you know, it's interesting. A lot of people think that, uh, the conversion process is a layup, but trust me it's not. It's a, it's a lot of work that's not really apparent in that probably the biggest step is the adult book might be say 70,000 words. Your middle reader book is going to be shorter, say 45,000 words and people think, Oh you just cut out parts of the book, but you can't do it that easy cause you're going to confuse the reader if you leave out one key component. So it's literally going through every sentence and saying, is there anything I can trim here without losing the readers focus and attention of the story? So you're going sentence by sentence and looking where you can trim and it's more labor intensive than I would have ever thought. You're simplifying some technical things for a middle reader, for example, Into the Blizzard takes place out on the ocean during the blizzard of 1978 so there are some nautical terms and not every middle reader will understand what they mean.

Michael:          So I might, you know, add a little bit of an explanation. I try to think back to when I was 12 years old, what kind of books did I like? And they were always the books that were fast paced. So that's, that's been my mantra. Make it fast paced. Again, a little more, uh, more work than I thought. But very rewarding when you, when you hear back from a, a teenager that says, you know, I'm not a big reader. I wasn't even looking forward to reading this book, but I read it in two nights and I'm like, wow,. That's what I hope, you know, just make it fast. Make them feel like they're on this boat. Caught in the blizzard, the storm of the century on the ocean.

Mindy:             I was not alive in 1978 but I would be there soon. And a lot of the familial legends that we have in my family is the blizzard. We talk about it all the time. I'm from the Midwest. I grew up in Ohio, I still live here. And the blizzard of 78 is a topic constantly. So when you're talking about choosing your topics yourself, whether for adult or middle grade, when you're, when you're adapting yourself, how do you find a topic? Like what as a nonfiction author makes you say, I know, let's do this next?

Michael:          That's a great question. And you know, having done seven books of that genre, you know, these true survival at sea stories, I'm constantly pitched ideas. When I go out and speak, someone will come up to me and say, Oh, I've got a survival at sea story for you. And within five minutes I know whether it's any good or not. Because what I find is most of the stories I hear would make a good magazine article but could never sustain a whole book. They don't have enough surprises. They don't go on long enough through a time period. Um, they're kind of cut and dry. I got in terrible trouble on the ocean, fell off the boat, was out there for hours, was rescued. So I'm looking for the more complex stories that will really surprise the reader with, with both the survival part of it, but also how did they get rescued?

Michael:          And oftentimes, uh, the rescues are just as exciting as the survivor's story. I did a book called A Storm Too Soon and that rescue takes place, 80 foot waves, one wave after another. It's on my website. What I found really compelling about A Storm Too Soon was even the rescue swimmer needed to be rescued. You know, once they dropped him down in the water to help with these survivors, he was overcome by these waves. So you could imagine the, the three people left in the helicopter going, Oh my God, now we can't even get our own guy back. So yeah, I'm looking for those twists, turns, surprises that'll carry a whole book. And I think, I think that rule of thumb would be good for other aspiring writers. Is that, is it a great magazine article or can it really carry a whole book of say 250 pages?

Mindy:             Yeah. And a lot of people don't understand cause the same thing happens to me as a writer when I'm out and I'm touring or if I'm having conversations even with people just in everyday life. And they'll say, well I have the idea for your next book. And I'm like, no actually I probably have the idea for my next book. But you know, tell me your story. And often it is like you're saying, it's just that it's a story.

Michael:          That's so true. I get pitched that all the time. And um, but you know what? Every say one out of 30 really is a fascinating story that I will begin to look into and then, you know, within a short period of time know if it's going to work or not.

Mindy:             I don't mind hearing people's stories at all. And sometimes there is something to them. But I think too, that very often you actually have to have that personal connection to the story in order for it to interest you. So oftentimes people say, you know, I have the best story. That's great for them. But sometimes it's only interesting if you know the people in the story or if you have a personal connection to it. And as a writer it is difficult sometimes to find those stories that are going to be more universal, that are going to pull in more than just the people who are already intimately connected to it. So how do you know as a nonfiction author when you've hit that gold mine of that universal story?

Michael:          For me, it's oftentimes an event that, uh, say it's, say it's a historical event that I'll go, Hey, I'm a big history buff, big history reader. But I had no idea that happened. For example, with Above and Beyond the Cuban missile crisis, I had no idea that the, the Soviet union shot down one of our pilots and killed them over Cuba. You know, people seem to know about Gary Powers shot down over Russia, but not this one. So I was like, wow, at that really surprised me and I want to learn more how that all happened and how that didn't lead to it all out war. I figured the reader is going to feel the same way. So it's, it's that element of surprise for me that, um, that I'm looking for. And the same with these, uh, true survival stories that I write as well. It's got to have that, that element of surprise going, wow, I can't, that seems to be off the charts in terms of how anyone could survive.

Mindy:             Yes. And survivor stories, they're thrilling simply because of the fact that we can see that humans are resilient and they can go through so much and come out the other side. And it also, I think, gives us hope and I think hope is something that we really need right now. And so survival stories I think are evergreen in so many ways, especially in dark times.

Michael:          Yes. And you know, just knowing that, say for example, uh, four young men and women from the coast guard will risk their lives going out for a total stranger who is in a life and death situation because they screwed up because of their own fault. And now you've got four young people putting their lives on the line to rescue them. So you're right, it has got that element that that we kind of need of hope and, but often times if I hear a story and I think maybe I could've survived that, I'll go, I don't want to write about it. I want to write about the ones that I go, I could have never made it.

Mindy:             Yes.

Michael:          I did a book, Fatal Forecast, where the, the vessel is hit by a hundred foot rogue wave. It's just a little 50 foot boat off Cape Cod and this a hundred foot rogue wave capsizes the boat and three of the four people inside are trapped and perish. But one, one guy gets out, his name's Ernie Hazzard and what he goes through in the next three days, and this is in late November in the North Atlantic, so you can only imagine. What he goes through was just off the charts. I mean the coast guard never dreamed they'd find them alive. They were just searching for a body. And the fact that he made it made me want to call him up, say, can I interview you? And he lived in California and I said, I will be on the next flight out when he said yes.

Mindy:             Have you ever written about an event where the outcome wasn't so rosy, where people were lost or there was not that element of redemption or hope at the end? Have you ever had to handle something like that?

Michael:          Yes, and surprisingly that's one of the books that people love and I get mail on and that's the Ten Hours Until Dawn for adults and Into the Blizzard for young adults. It does not have a a neat and happy ending. It's uplifting in that people did their best and tried. But what made that research interesting and unique for me was if some of the people perished, how can you write about what they're going through unless you speculate? And I got very lucky that someone on land recorded all their radio communications. So in some cases the men who are doomed are telling you what they're doing to try and fight through this, this storm, you know? And so getting back to say the proposals, for example, I remember when I wrote the proposal for that, I said this book is similar to The Perfect Storm, but very different in that in The Perfect Storm, Sebastian Junger had to speculate. But in Ten Hours Until Dawn, I have the radio transcripts and I, weave in what the men were saying from the actual radio communications and that, that definitely gives it this extra edge of tension when, you know, it's not Michael Tougias, uh, making up dialogue. I'm taking it direct from these audio tapes.

Mindy:             Oh boy, are those, is it difficult to listen to?

Michael:          Well, because I didn't know the men, it wasn't too difficult. But by the end of, you know, the year and a half of research, I did feel close to two of the guys in particular and, and it did become difficult. And when I speak on the subject, it's difficult to talk about them. One was a Charlie Bucko and he was like somebody out of central casting, like a Hollywood character. This tall, good looking guy with a free spirit. Funny, uh, had been in Vietnam, two purple hearts when he was there. He’d done a whole bunch of coast guard rescues and then decided I'm getting out of the coast guard cause I'm getting married and I don't want to make my wife a widow. And uh, when the storm comes and he's asked to go out and help some coastguard men or women in trouble out in the ocean, he says yes. And as the author, you know, the outcome isn't going to be good. So where you've grown close to that character, each time you speak on that subject, it does cause a little bit of pain.

Mindy:             Mmm. I can't imagine. I really can't. Coming up research and the process of interviewing your subjects face to face.

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Mindy:             How much research do you do before you actually began writing the book? Like, how much of a grounding do you take before you, before you decide you have enough to begin?

Michael:          I oftentimes I'll start the book even though I know the research is still going to continue and I encourage other writers to do the same because you can always go back and add more, tweak it, it starts to coalesce a little better if you actually start the writing while you're doing the research. And in terms of the, the time involved, I'd much rather interview people who were involved, you know, and just let them talk with a tape recorder than going back through archival material. In some books I've had to do, had to do both. For example with uh, The Finest Hours, you know, that became the movie. You know, some of the people involved are no longer with us. So you're going through newspaper interviews that they gave back in 1952 others are in their eighties when I interviewed them. And that was great cause I could sit down with these older gentlemen and just let the tape recorder run and then do follow ups. So it is, it is nice to have that mix. Whereas you know, if you're, I did two books on King Phillip's Indian war. There, it's all archival material and after a while it's kind of a lonely process.

Mindy:             Yes, exactly. And that was going to be my next question. Do you have a research assistant?

Michael:          I do it all on my own. You know, unless you're the David McCullough of the world, you're not going to have a research assistant. So that that strength of yours, you'll have to develop as strong as the writing of having people be comfortable around you to really open up and, and give them the confidence that you're going to tell their story accurately. Every once in a while you'll meet someone who's reluctant to, to talk. In the book A Storm Too Soon, there's three, three survivors and two wanted their stories to be out and be known, but the third didn't. But eventually I was able to show him the early chapters based on my interview with the other two and the rescuers. And that gave him a comfort level. And he was like, well, it's my story too. I don't want to be left out. So sometimes they will come around, you just, you have to be patient and not, not pressure them. But be persistent would be, uh, the message because oftentimes they'll change their mind when they see you're very serious and you're gonna pay close attention to the details.

Mindy:             Well, and also I assume when you are working with subject matter where people were in intense situations, they were in traumatic situations, I'm sure that you, you have to illustrate that you're going to be handling this correctly and with respect.

Michael:          Exactly. Um, and you know, and sometimes you become close friends with these people. The main survivor in my book Overboard, I just stayed at his house last week. I spend the winters in Florida and he's on the other side of Florida and I was over there speaking. So I just called them out of the blue and said, Hey, I'm going to be in your neck of the woods. Can I stay at your place? I've stayed there before. And he's like, sure Mike. And uh, you know, so we've become close. He knows he's got an open invitation to stay on my side of Florida and vice versa. So that, that's one of the biggest rewards I think is the friendships. And when the book comes out that the people who were there saying, you've got it right. Thank you. You know, they're sticking their necks out with a total stranger and because it's such a sensitive topic to them, life and death, you can't help but grow close. You know, you'd have to be a cold hearted SOB not to grow close to these people.

Mindy:             The ability to interview someone and to get them to open up, but also for them to be comfortable and to understand that you do regard them not just as a story or a scoop that they're a human being that has been through something. There's a special skill to getting people to open up to you. And, um, developing that relationship. So do you have any tips about how to be a both ethic and moral, ethical and moral interviewer?

Michael:          I do think it's okay to let the people you've interviewed check over your rough draft. Um, I don't see anything wrong with that. They're the one, they're the only ones who know the story anyways. If they're say out on the ocean alone, um, you're going by what they tell you. So I, I find that puts them at ease knowing, okay, I'm going to get a look at it. They're not going to change my writing style. They're not going to change the structure. But they may catch a little mistake here and there. Like they'll say, Oh, Mike, this event only lasted an hour. You have it down as lasting a couple hours. This shark, Mike, you've got it as five, but I got to tell you, it could be nine feet. You know, little things like that. And I welcome those. I want it, I want to make it accurate. So I think that would be a key way for a writer to have their subject feel comfortable. Say I'd be happy to let you take a look at these drafts and correct me if I'm wrong on anything.

Mindy:             And when it comes to actually conducting your interviews, do you tend to meet with the same person more than once?

Michael:          Yes. And I'll have a tape recorder and oftentimes sometimes I'll show up with two tape recorders and be taking notes and they'll be like, why? And I'll be like, I'm so afraid one won't record. You know, this is so important to me to get it all. And uh, and I always let them know, you know, we'll keep this conversation going for as long as, or as little as you like. With Ernie Hazzard and the book Fatal Forecast. I stayed at his house for a week straight. We had a wonderful time. We would do the interviews in the evening and then sometime, and then the next day I'd go over it and I'd have questions. Uh, but we'd also spend some fun time going out to dinner or taking walks. Yeah. My style's a little different. He had been interviewed by somebody else and he said, yeah, that person was just all business. And he said, you're not that. So I'm more comfortable. And I said, that's just me yet, you know, I, I, I don't know any other way to do it.

Mindy:             Yeah. And I think that you're going to get, especially if you're writing, you're writing beyond the facts with your nonfiction, you're actually delving into the person and their experience and their humanity. And in order to actually tap into that, you need more than the bare bones of the events. You need to understand this human being as well as you can.

Michael:          It's exactly it's, yeah. And sometimes you, the best way to do it is face to face. Now, if it's a minor character in the book, I don't mind doing the interview over the phone. You get the gist of what you need. What if it's a major character? You definitely want to be with them in person. You know, I've, I flew to France for one of the characters in A Storm Too Soon and stayed. I took my daughter with me and we stayed with the gentleman and his wife, uh, for four days and it was, we had the time of our lives, so, and he was just so appreciative that I came over. Um, so he's like, okay, this guy means business. He's kind of, he's really devoting himself to this project.

Mindy:             Absolutely. And speaking of that devotion, typically, how much time does it take you from rough draft to final products?

Michael:          It does vary, but I would say for the true survival rescue books, usually about two years. If you were doing it, you know, you're not, you're never doing anything full time. I speak around the country and you know, to either business groups or a lecture, I'm never doing it full time, but I'd say about two years. But you know, as I'm giving you that answer, I'm thinking of my latest book. It's going to be called The Waters Between Us. It's about me growing up in the relationship with my father and most of the book takes place in the, in the outdoors cause I'm an outdoors guy, always on rivers. And, um, that book took me... It's been at least 10 years and you would think that would be the fastest one to do because I'm writing it a lot from my own memory, but some parts, some parts are challenging and there's a tragedy in the book of family tragedy that brings my father closer together.

Michael:          But my two brothers advised me, we prefer you don't write about that. And I said I have to, it's, it's part of my journey of growing up. But I'd like you to take a look at that chapter because you were involved in this tragedy. It makes sure I don't make any mistakes. So there were just little things like that that made it a very time consuming book and not a lot of rewrites on that book compared to others. You know, for example, Overboard, I sent the manuscript to Simon & Schuster, the editor got back to me a month later and said it looks great. I'm sending it on to the copy editor. And I was like, Oh, you know, no changes? Nope, looks great. He said, so I was happy as hell. Cause I thought it looked good too. And then of course the copy editor makes a bunch of improvements because I always could use help there. Whereas The Waters Between Us, uh, I'd say the first three chapters I rewrote six, seven times.

Mindy:             When you're doing the research, when you're compiling, do you have... I know you were saying you usually have your recorder and you also are taking physical notes. When you are getting ready to compile all of this information, do you have a certain system that you go about? Do you have a corkboard in front of your desk? Do you spread things out on the floor around you? What's your method?

Michael:          Um, I'm glad you asked because it's, it's very unusual and very old fashioned. Um, everything's paper copies and everything's in files in the right order. So for example, I'll know where this interview or this bit of archival research goes and it might be a file I label "beginning of chapter two," you know, or it might be labeled "the ending of chapter two." But in each one of those files will be a whole bunch of paper, some will be little handwritten notes that I woke up in the middle of the night and remembered, all I need to say this. And um, it's would probably drive the younger people nuts who are used to everything digitally or electronically. But it just works for me. And in the writing process, and again, I just finished, uh, this new book just a couple of days ago, I would take all these different notes and then start looking at them and condensing them into say three or four sheets of master notes per chapter. So you're starting to throw out these little slips of paper and just get the gist of it down. And uh, yeah, so I'm a kind of a paper guy. Other people they might go to say the National Archives with their camera and take photos of whatever this historical document they're doing is right? For me, it's like, what am I going to do with that photo? I need it. And you know, like you said, laid out on the floor and on tables all around my writing station.

Mindy:             Yeah, that's what I do as well. Even though I write fiction, I do a lot of research before I start writing about anything and I will just have piles around me kind of fanned out and it may not make sense to anyone else and that's fine. It doesn't have to, it only needs to make sense to me and I often just have kind of a mess all around me and I just like to think of taking all that information. It's just being funneled into one place and transformed into fiction. And that's, that's my own process and it's, it is mostly physical copies as well. I, for whatever reason, when I'm doing research, I want to have that physical copy in front of me to write on, to make notes. I need that tactile interaction. It all helps me feel like I'm being more effective of a researcher.

Michael:          Do you find that, um, you write a pretty detailed outline for the fiction books and then when you're actually writing the book, you don't pay that much attention to the outline?

Mindy:             I don't outline at all. I keep all my information right at my fingertips so that when I get to a point where I need to reference something, I know which pile I need. I reach out and I grab that particular paper. But usually no, I'm not doing any type of outlining. I'm a, I'm a big fan of pantsing most everything.

Michael:          So you have a general idea of where this fiction book is going, but you don't have it all spelled out, you know, chapter by chapter. Here's how it's gonna flow.

Mindy:             Yeah, no, not at all. I, I just do the deep dive and I see what happens. So the way it feels organic to the fiction.

Michael:          And again, and that's, that's kinda similar even on the nonfiction where I do need a little bit of an outline via the proposal. Once I start writing, oftentimes I veer way off what I originally thought the flow would be. And do you, do you find Mindy, that at your level now that you can get a contract without writing the whole book?

Mindy:             Yeah, I'm, I'm fortunate enough that I can usually just pitch a synopsis, but my editor knows at this point that what I turn in as a synopsis may or may not be what actually happens in the book. I just give them something that says, this is my concept and this is probably what happens, but you know, that I may not stick to it and they, they will operate within those parameters for me. They think the concept is there. They trust me enough to know that I'll deliver the book.

Michael:          Oh, that's, that's a great, uh, a great relationship to have where they have that, that trust for you.

Mindy:             Yeah, it is. It is. I can't complain and uh, I revel in it and I know that I'm lucky and I'm very glad because fiction as you were saying, you do generally have to have a finished manuscript and you can pour a couple of years into a manuscript that may never sell.

Michael:           I know, I know. We're, we're in the craziest business there is, you know, maybe equated to farming where you don't know if your crops gonna ever get harvested or not. Something's going to come along, a hailstorm and wipe it out. But um, yeah, it's a nutty business where you just don't know if all that hard work you're going to be paid for it. But there's something that drives us and if you get that little bit of encouragement, you, you keep going and you do need to be persistent. If you're not a persistent type of person, it's probably not the right business for you.

Mindy:             Absolutely. It's funny that you bring up the farming comparison because I am from a family of farmers and that's how I grew up. And you just, you really don't understand what fluctuations are like until your entire question of whether or not you get new shoes depends on if it rains.

Michael:          That's, that's perfect. Right. And it's the same for same for a writer. You're pitching these ideas and you might have had 50 rejections and you're wondering, when am I going to be able to buy new shoes.

Mindy:             Yeah

Michael:          Yeah. Well, like I say, you only need one win in this business. It's, you know, you don't need a high batting average. All you need is one publisher. And with, with nonfiction, oftentimes you're going to a different publisher because it's a different topic. For example, one book that I co-wrote is about the first U-Boat to come into the Gulf of Mexico and it, it sinks a freighter with a family of four on board. So you have a World War II story, but right here off our coast. Simon and Schuster, they weren't interested. My editor there is more interested in those more recent survival at sea stories. So they weren't enthusiastic about it, but I found a wonderful publisher with Pegasus Books to do So Close to Home. So, you know, you're out there pitching from scratch to a brand new publisher. Yeah, I'd say over my career I've probably had 12 different publishers.

Mindy:             Wow.

Michael:          Yup. And the, and the relationship with Christy Ottaviano for these true rescue series for the middle reader that looks like the most permanent one. Yes I could see she and I working together on these types of books. Uh, we've got three that are out now and two more on the way. Um, I could see that relationship continuing.

Mindy:             That's wonderful. That's, I hope so. I think that's fantastic. Last thing, where can listeners find your books and where can they find you online?

Michael:          My website, Michael, and then the last name is spelled T, O, U, G, I, A, S dot com. So Michael togaius.com and on that website there's a little bit of everything. There's, you'll see the, the raft and the 80 foot waves where I mentioned the rescue swimmer was in trouble. You'll see that video. You'll see a video of me describing how I put a book together. Uh, there's a place to purchase autographed books. There's, uh, a little bit of about the speaking that I do for business groups that are inspiring stories. Or for example, from the Cuban missile crisis, I do a program about JFK. What were the steps in his decision making to come to the right conclusion to get the missiles out of Cuba without starting nuclear war? So I've crammed a lot into that website. I'm so glad I had help building it because my attempts were awful. All the help I can get, I feel confident with my writing, but just about everything else, uh, I need help.